The Story of Jude
About two weeks ago, a co-worker sent an email blast asking for donations for a group of 4 rescued puppies in her care. I thought I would just go and get her some cash, or bring her some puppy food. But I went home, and by the next morning, I decided I would adopt...
Feel like a Failure?
Listen, life is hard…. period. Life is even harder when you deal with mental disorders, unstable emotions, and have a hard time coping with everyday things. Life can make you feel as though you are a complete and total failure at it. But its LIFE!!! How do you fail at something that has been...
Required: Brokeness
Since surviving my Suicide attempt, I have learned to be extremely cautious about my head space. Healing was an extremely long process, and I’ve had to make some tough choices in continuing to be better. As I became stronger, as I regained a sense of self and self-worth, I noticed that some of my...
There are no words….
My father is a 69 year old man, born in Huntsville, Alabama, an HBCU graduate, an entrepreneur, an engineer, a grandfather, and A BLACK MAN. I mention his race last because that is how this country wants him to believe they see him. He knows they do NOT. You see he...
I WAS HERE
It wasn't until I was about 35 years old that I realized that I have lived my entire feeling unremarkable, less than memorable, and at times just plain invisible. It wasn't that I didn't get enough attention as a kid because my family will tell you that it was next to impossible...
Going in Circles through Cycles of Spirals
Spinning... stop, take a deep breath. Now take one step, just one. Step. Now another. Step. Okay take two. Step, step. Now three. Step, step, and step. Take a breath, you're doing great. Breathe. I think you're getting the hang of it, take a few more steps. Step, step, step, step. Are you ready...
Love in the Form of Flesh
It is so important that we all have a person or people to support us emotionally. We often first lean on our family and friends, and if we are lucky, we even get a co-worker or two that we befriend and we form a mutual support system at work too. I have been extremely...
For Shame…
" For Shame!" An expression that condemns someone for being dishonorable or disgraceful. "For Shame!" She cried. Shame. Shame is defined both as a noun and as a verb. To Shame someone, a verb, means to make someone feel ashamed. Shame is defined as a painful feeling of humiliation or distress...
Cleaning out the Storage Unit
I've said it before, August 2016 was the lowest of my lower points. I work very carefully day-to-day to never end up back in that place. 17 months after my suicide attempt, I had lost my second job in a year, and was evicted from my apartment. I had less than...
He Knows My Name Too
I haven't written in a long time its seems, and lately, I have had more spiritual awakenings than mental health breakthroughs. I have a dedicated prayer and meditation space that I utilize more than I ever thought I would. That planted seed of devotion to my Lord and spending time with him has been...