The Story of Jude
About two weeks ago, a co-worker sent an email blast asking for donations for a group of 4 rescued puppies in her care. I thought I would just go and get her some cash, or bring her some puppy food. But I went home, and by the next morning, I decided I would adopt...
Feel like a Failure?
Listen, life is hard…. period. Life is even harder when you deal with mental disorders, unstable emotions, and have a hard time coping with everyday things. Life can make you feel as though you are a complete and total failure at it. But its LIFE!!! How do you fail at something that has been...
Required: Brokeness
Since surviving my Suicide attempt, I have learned to be extremely cautious about my head space. Healing was an extremely long process, and I’ve had to make some tough choices in continuing to be better. As I became stronger, as I regained a sense of self and self-worth, I noticed that some of my...
There are no words….
My father is a 69 year old man, born in Huntsville, Alabama, an HBCU graduate, an entrepreneur, an engineer, a grandfather, and A BLACK MAN. I mention his race last because that is how this country wants him to believe they see him. He knows they do NOT. You see he...
Going in Circles through Cycles of Spirals
Spinning... stop, take a deep breath. Now take one step, just one. Step. Now another. Step. Okay take two. Step, step. Now three. Step, step, and step. Take a breath, you're doing great. Breathe. I think you're getting the hang of it, take a few more steps. Step, step, step, step. Are you ready...
I WAS HERE
It wasn't until I was about 35 years old that I realized that I have lived my entire feeling unremarkable, less than memorable, and at times just plain invisible. It wasn't that I didn't get enough attention as a kid because my family will tell you that it was next to impossible...
For Shame…
" For Shame!" An expression that condemns someone for being dishonorable or disgraceful. "For Shame!" She cried. Shame. Shame is defined both as a noun and as a verb. To Shame someone, a verb, means to make someone feel ashamed. Shame is defined as a painful feeling of humiliation or distress...
Cleaning out the Storage Unit
I've said it before, August 2016 was the lowest of my lower points. I work very carefully day-to-day to never end up back in that place. 17 months after my suicide attempt, I had lost my second job in a year, and was evicted from my apartment. I had less than...
Love in the Form of Flesh
It is so important that we all have a person or people to support us emotionally. We often first lean on our family and friends, and if we are lucky, we even get a co-worker or two that we befriend and we form a mutual support system at work too. I have been extremely...
He Knows My Name Too
I haven't written in a long time its seems, and lately, I have had more spiritual awakenings than mental health breakthroughs. I have a dedicated prayer and meditation space that I utilize more than I ever thought I would. That planted seed of devotion to my Lord and spending time with him has been...