Being Hopeful can be a Struggle
We hear it all the time. "Just think positive." "Sending Good vibes." I'm the type of person that even when I feel hopeless, I try to hold on to some kind of hope that the feeling will pass soon enough. Some days, I don't truly believe it will. I have days that I don't...
While the world was on fire
Let's just admit that 2020 for most of us has been a complete and utter shit show. Vision Boards became an after thought. We've spent more time with our immediate families this year that in the last decade or so. Those jobs that couldn't be done from home, have now gone 100%...
My 1st Thanksgiving without You
I have been dreading the day since around your Birthday last month. I could get through that day just fine because I didn't usually see you, nor had there been a tradition of gathering the family together to visit you that day until recently. But I knew Thanksgiving would be a different story. I...
This Side of Hope: An Invitation
My son was 2 years and 2 months old when I found out his sister was on the way. Once again, fear struck. Would I go through the depression again? Would my children be safe? Was I mentally able to care for two children with my condition? There were so many conversations about having...
Better than Good
I say it all the time, loneliness, is a powerful feeling. But it is just that a feeling. For most of us that feel that loneliness, we aren't alone, just missing something. Recently, I have had to come to grips with the fact that I have been unfaithful in all but one of my...
What I wish you knew
Dear June 11th,
I wish you knew how excited I was to finally meet you. To be able to see you with my own eyes, to touch your hand, and maybe steal a kiss or two. You said it yourself there was a connection and it had returned, but what you didn't know is that...
The gift of my Girl
January 31st, 2010, I had a positive pregnancy, and unlike my first pregnancy, I wasn't in denial. I knew I was having baby number 2 and I KNEW it would be a baby girl. I was about 3.5 weeks pregnant. There was no question of who the father was, so I called him. He...
My 2019 Body: The Facts
January 1st, 2019... I started the year off running/ jogging my first 5K. It felt great and I set a goal to run the Houston Half-marathon next year. I started working really hard to make that happen. 16 days later, I was diagnosed with pneumonia. Yes, walking pneumonia. I hadn't been sick, and I...
Cleaning out the Storage Unit
I've said it before, August 2016 was the lowest of my lower points. I work very carefully day-to-day to never end up back in that place. 17 months after my suicide attempt, I had lost my second job in a year, and was evicted from my apartment. I had less than...
He Knows My Name Too
I haven't written in a long time its seems, and lately, I have had more spiritual awakenings than mental health breakthroughs. I have a dedicated prayer and meditation space that I utilize more than I ever thought I would. That planted seed of devotion to my Lord and spending time with him has been...








